I worked myself up...

...and for nothing. Well, not for nothing, because there was the awkwardness of going over the actual numbers. But there were two very enjoyable hours of reconnecting, of laughing and bitching over TV and movies, as we geeks are wont to do. Vetching about work, and just generally catching up.

At times it did feel like we were talking around certain fragile things, dancing close to a few precipices, there are still conversations that we aren't ready to have.

But that's ok, it's ok because we laughed so much, before and after the reason that we were there. It was reminiscent of things past and sorely missed.

I have hope now that things can and will be, indeed are on the way, to being mended.

We worked out something doable for everyone. No one made me feel as if I were a bad person, I can't say I don't feel guilt, but I am not buried under it.

I'm not entirely sure I should have posted what I did on my blog earlier. It's not like I was really concentrating on work, and at least I got to work some things out. A little more publicly than I usually do, but hey, it's my blog :).

Those who read the post, thanks for getting through the babble. Those who think I'm a whiny selfish brat...thanks for getting through the babble ;).

I really do hope to have more interesting things to read and share in the future. I know there should be a game review of "Bounty Head Bebop" coming soon, ideally with an accompanying review on AGC. Secret Life hasn't gone either, we're just on hiatus right now.

Time for bed now...

Carol